Heal through your creative flo!!!!!
Peace & Blessings
I haven’t had a night like this in quite sometime. Maybe it’s the wind or rain that has placed me in a state of thought. My thoughts are pumping rapidly and I can barely put them together. The wind is no longer calming me it’s evoking me to sit up and write out my thoughts as they come into my mind. I have been on this yo-yo trip. Going up and down…..back and forth not wanting to stop figuring and readjusting plans and plots. I thought I had it all figured out and mapped out….the plot lines of course. But somehow I started writing and my story went into a direction that had the characters confused and me too. My story became a bit drastic and even something eerie mixed with comic relief mixed with reality. I am well pass my bedtime but this storyline must be revamped line by line. The mind of a writer is quite intense…
It’s racing at a pace I can’t even calculate. My creativity is overflowing AND starting to spew out onto blank screens. Producing masterpieces of black splashes laid neatly onto rows with elegant pearl white backdrops. I can’t explain it and nevertheless contain it. This story in my mind and heart must be birthed out……..it has to be birthed and not aborted for this is too great of a work brewing ready to intoxicate the minds of readers here and there. These labor pains are a bit intense just bare with me for a bit…..
Peace…….love…..and write your heart out……….
After I snuggled into my bed with my white cheddar popcorn and room temperature red rock ginger ale. I started to flip through my Atlanta Parent magazine realizing at that very moment that I am now like one of those super attentive moms with team shirts and fundraising packets stuck closely to my chest. The very thing that I have dreaded and refused to get into. I was a mom. A mom that really wants that mini- van that I ridiculed for all of those years. Shame! What have I turned into?
The make-up departed when my baby was 2 year old and just forget wearing heels. Baby, I love my sneakers and tights. With a sporty tee of course and combs….what are those anyway? And Fashion has become a foreign word that I can no longer pronounce.
The fact is I am a mother….No, I am this famous lady, or flashy person. I am a mother and I am fine with that. Now, I must admit at times I feel like my identity has went to hell and stayed there because I have changed soooo much. Motherhood brings you into a place you never imagined being. A place that is suppose to take you away for selfish desires and focus on trying your best with the grace of God to raise your children to be God fearing, and productive citizens.
I had to really evaluate some things. Do I need to pump out books galore, go to work everyday, work a part-time job just to accumulate more things and have more time away from my daughters and husband. I think I am quite fine and blessed maybe I will go for that famous thing when the baby goes off to college. Who knows>>>>>
Love, peace and blessing to you all….
Ok, I must admit that writing is truly a passion of mines and there are no buts about it. I love writing out all of my complex thoughts and odd scenarios. It’s as if my imagination, worries, and fears intertwine for a literary pow-wow which is not only therapy sort of but it creates some really good stuff. I just really felt like I needed to write something on here so there it was. Have a blessed evening folks!
I say that my gift of writing is truly unique and special and as I go into this New Year I just give God thanks for blessing me with the gift of storytelling, translation, and poetic flow. Writing stories heal me as well as heal and entertain my readers. It’s a New Year so drop all the anxiety and give it to a character you create.
Peace…..Love….and Blessings to you
Sometimes blessings come to you in the most strangest ways but we must learn to look at every situation as lessons and blessings. Here is a mini story for you.
My energy levels were depleted and I was barely rolling out of the bed to complete my daily task. I had gained a load of additional weight and was sooooooo sluggish. So after my morning meditation one day I decided to pray about it and leave it in my GOD BOX… I asked God to help me get my energy back and the desire to work out more. So I went on about my life and didn’t think twice about my prayer. Maybe the second week I started to feel funny and dizzy after drinking and eating certain unhealthy things. So being the hypochondriac I am I rushed down to the emergency room and ordered every dang on test I could order and after the result came back and everything was fine I just knew that I was going crazy.
Honestly, I was eating foods and drinking beverages that were caffeine and preservative infused but I couldn’t stop on my own. I was addicted and 30 days without my caffeine would have killed me or so I thought. Now, remember when I typed about putting my prayers in my God Box about increasing my energy and great health? Well, I guess God was like let me MAKE her stop because she is hardheaded and never just listens. So, my body was sort of forced into a organic and juicing fast which did increase my energy and then I even started a daily workout routine. I have gained soooooooo much energy and I am no longer feeling so sluggish. The moral of this story is simple ask and ye shall receive and know that blessings rain down even in the oddest forms. So when you can’t pay that cable bill maybe your butt doesn’t need to look at all of that negativity on the television or if you don’t have extra money to go eat out at your favorite restaurant, maybe you don’t need to stuff all of that processed stuff into your body. Divine Intervention will come in and turn things upside down and all around only to protect you. Now, if we all viewed life like this then maybe we wouldn’t be so frazzled when things don’t go how WE plan it to go….