Heal through your creative flo!!!!!
Peace & Blessings
I haven’t had a night like this in quite sometime. Maybe it’s the wind or rain that has placed me in a state of thought. My thoughts are pumping rapidly and I can barely put them together. The wind is no longer calming me it’s evoking me to sit up and write out my thoughts as they come into my mind. I have been on this yo-yo trip. Going up and down…..back and forth not wanting to stop figuring and readjusting plans and plots. I thought I had it all figured out and mapped out….the plot lines of course. But somehow I started writing and my story went into a direction that had the characters confused and me too. My story became a bit drastic and even something eerie mixed with comic relief mixed with reality. I am well pass my bedtime but this storyline must be revamped line by line. The mind of a writer is quite intense…
It’s racing at a pace I can’t even calculate. My creativity is overflowing AND starting to spew out onto blank screens. Producing masterpieces of black splashes laid neatly onto rows with elegant pearl white backdrops. I can’t explain it and nevertheless contain it. This story in my mind and heart must be birthed out……..it has to be birthed and not aborted for this is too great of a work brewing ready to intoxicate the minds of readers here and there. These labor pains are a bit intense just bare with me for a bit…..
Peace…….love…..and write your heart out……….
After I snuggled into my bed with my white cheddar popcorn and room temperature red rock ginger ale. I started to flip through my Atlanta Parent magazine realizing at that very moment that I am now like one of those super attentive moms with team shirts and fundraising packets stuck closely to my chest. The very thing that I have dreaded and refused to get into. I was a mom. A mom that really wants that mini- van that I ridiculed for all of those years. Shame! What have I turned into?
The make-up departed when my baby was 2 year old and just forget wearing heels. Baby, I love my sneakers and tights. With a sporty tee of course and combs….what are those anyway? And Fashion has become a foreign word that I can no longer pronounce.
The fact is I am a mother….No, I am this famous lady, or flashy person. I am a mother and I am fine with that. Now, I must admit at times I feel like my identity has went to hell and stayed there because I have changed soooo much. Motherhood brings you into a place you never imagined being. A place that is suppose to take you away for selfish desires and focus on trying your best with the grace of God to raise your children to be God fearing, and productive citizens.
I had to really evaluate some things. Do I need to pump out books galore, go to work everyday, work a part-time job just to accumulate more things and have more time away from my daughters and husband. I think I am quite fine and blessed maybe I will go for that famous thing when the baby goes off to college. Who knows>>>>>
Love, peace and blessing to you all….
Ok, I must admit that writing is truly a passion of mines and there are no buts about it. I love writing out all of my complex thoughts and odd scenarios. It’s as if my imagination, worries, and fears intertwine for a literary pow-wow which is not only therapy sort of but it creates some really good stuff. I just really felt like I needed to write something on here so there it was. Have a blessed evening folks!
Thoughts raced in my mind quicker than a speeding bullet or at least that sounds about right. Fear seems to be contagious in a way. I would hang around certain people and before long I would have fears racing in my head and some of those fears did not belong to me. So, was I supposed to live in a bubble? or just run like hell from people? But choices that I came up with did not go with my personality. I am a lover of people and even animals too. I loved talking to people about life and experiences but if I got around a crew that had a thousand and one buts as to why they are not happy and where they want to be and had something negative say about not only themselves but other people I would slowly feel myself loosing energy as I absorbed their crap. My husband says to me all of the time that I listen and that’s all people want is for someone to listen but I wasn’t just listening I was absorbing and I wasn’t getting paid for it. The thing is this. I have to learn how to step in take my power back and do what makes me feel great and that’s speaking life over myself and others. So toss those negative thoughts out the door and welcome in new people and situations.
Steps to elevate Negativity in your Life
1. Pray( please a prayer in your God box asking God to change your mind set and place positive and progressive people in your life and block out all of those that aren’t right for you)
2. Live your life (Do fun things….laugh a lot and worry less)
3. At the end of the day and before your day begins MEDITATE
4. Exercise more( walks in nature)
5. Eat healthier( going to sleep after eating cake will have you dreaming all kinds of crazy stuff.
6. If somebody is around you and everything is negative just walk away and politely excuse yourself *you might be alone for awhile but honey that is better than being around someone that dumps their crap on you…
Peace and Love to you ALL!!!!!!
I say that my gift of writing is truly unique and special and as I go into this New Year I just give God thanks for blessing me with the gift of storytelling, translation, and poetic flow. Writing stories heal me as well as heal and entertain my readers. It’s a New Year so drop all the anxiety and give it to a character you create.
Peace…..Love….and Blessings to you