After the day has passed away I am usually left in my thoughts. Trying to figure out who is true, who is fake, which way to go, which risk to dive into, who to share it with, and who to partner with.
Honestly, I went wrong when I tried to figure. I am slowly learning to break away from my trust issues and just say a prayer and be confident in knowing that God is guiding me and that I am ok. It’s not easy living in a world that loves to take advantage of people when you have a giving and lifting people up type of spirit. Especially when you find yourself lifting, and pouring into others that really would never do the same for you which doesn’t make them a horrible person but it has taught me to take care of Dee first and STOP people pleasing and it should teach you same thing.I am learning that I am not selfish for loving on Dee. I can still help others but I am learning to first help myself and that’s the truth. Now, I just gotta put that taking care of Dee thing into action.
Peace and Blessing to you all…….Enjoy your weekend!!!
I rubbed my fingers through a pile of mustard seeds just to see and feel for myself how small they actually were. Now, I suppose my faith is strong. Strong enough to overcede a mustard seed. I watched how they rolled out of my hand and through the openings in the palms of my hands until there was nothing else left. I got up from my chair convinced that my faith would push through doors and boundaries that I couldn’t even imagine. I was sure that the mustard seed had nothing on the faith I had tucked away in me. At that moment I knew the battles I faced were in need of a boost of faith and me falling down onto my knees in total submission.
Now, I got up and walked away and no more than a day when everything seemed to be falling down I downgraded my prayer and starting saying if it’s in your will and I stopped and something came to me. Now in the bible it’s written that, “You ask and do not receive because you ask with the wrong motives so that you may spend it on your own pleasures”( James 4:3) Now, a big fine house with a pool out in the back is great but what about world hunger, missionaries fighting for their lives, safety in our country and throughout the world, peace, togetherness in the communities, better schools? We must start praying and unselfishly for peace, favor, and grace over leaders, communities, family members, and self and watch how that little mustard seed of faith and praise will make a impact… a positive impact..
Life is a wild, crazy, and extreme ride. As I go through my ups and then my downs there is one thing constant I am still standing through it all. Now, I can sit and ponder over all of the things that are lacking in my life and all of the to do list I have scattered around my house but at this very moment I have decided to chill….laugh….love….and just flow. Worrying has never caused any problems to cease in fact worrying brings about more stress and a load of anxiety so the solution for me to the pull myself up and show love, be willing to accept love and laugh a lot. So can you join one for one entire week of no negativity, no hate, no frustration but a week filled with prayer, praise, and showing love the way God intended us to be. Think about how Jesus died to save somebody like you and me yet we refuse to forgive people and show the same love and compassion for human kind. It’s time to stop, drop baggage off, love more and laugh with some positive people….
Enjoy your week and may it be filled with peace, joy, praise, and love in the name of Jesus……
As a creative person I am blessed with so many different talents and ideas. But somehow the stressors of life and the impatience of my soul has my mind in a thousand different directions trying to find prosperity, wanting to make a name for myself, and peace all in one breath. During this quest for excellence I must admit I have lost my peace at times, joy, general happiness and the ability to just simply live and enjoy the blessing that God had already blessed me with instead of just focusing on my lacks. I am learning everyday to trust and know that God will do everything that he said he will do. So sometimes(NOT ALL) its best to just simply stop…..relax…release the need to control outcomes and people that are uncontrollable. Step back and pray a heck of a lot and meditate when you are going through and most importantly I pray for strength, endurance and peace as I go through my trails and tribulations. I must be completely honest with you at times I feel like my situation is hopeless because I can’t understand the resolution and then my peace and happiness is gone, just like that within seconds.
I am developing a tongue that projects life. I am not defeated….I am a child of the most high GOD, my battles have been fought for me and Jesus paid the cost for my soul at calvary. I have to get my tongue back to speaking life and claiming victory. The truth is I have been redeemed and I am refreshed thanks to God’s mighty love and blessings.
I am learning that wealth will come and go. I used to think that wealth was the answer to every single problem that existed in my life but the reality is simple….money, pride, and arrogance often hindered me from having the true peace and comfort I was truly seeking so desperately. As I turned to God not man for answers and asked for a heart that was righteous then my transition began and is still going on. This is truly my testimony and it’s written in truth and is still being written as I go on throughout my day but I wanted to blog my testimony to let somebody know that you are not alone in your anxieties and worries about life and even your faith so I can only tell you that some days will be dreadfully bad and then some will be glorious but take time to stop for a minute….pray and pray some more. I think I rather stop….relax…release…and wait today rather than chase after thangs that ain’t right me.