Excerpt from, Who Gave You The Right a story within Ain’t Good For My Soul:
June 20, 2014
” I can’t get the sound of my mothers’ voice. The voice I have heard my whole life out of my head. Just last night she whispered hidden thoughts into my ears. Thoughts that should have remained uncovered. Thoughts I can’t seem to shake off. Those words. The words are lingering around in my head and I can’t seem to get them to stop. Her soft and sweet whispers are sounds that no daughter or son for that matter should have to hear from their mother; the first woman I learned to trust. The whispers are now escalating every second into louder sounds; ringing sounds; repeating sounds. Into cutting words. Damaging words”. GRAB YOUR COPY OF Ain’t Good For My Soul today!!! on amazon.com of course!!!
I rubbed my fingers through a pile of mustard seeds just to see and feel for myself how small they actually were. Now, I suppose my faith is strong. Strong enough to overcede a mustard seed. I watched how they rolled out of my hand and through the openings in the palms of my hands until there was nothing else left. I got up from my chair convinced that my faith would push through doors and boundaries that I couldn’t even imagine. I was sure that the mustard seed had nothing on the faith I had tucked away in me. At that moment I knew the battles I faced were in need of a boost of faith and me falling down onto my knees in total submission.
Now, I got up and walked away and no more than a day when everything seemed to be falling down I downgraded my prayer and starting saying if it’s in your will and I stopped and something came to me. Now in the bible it’s written that, “You ask and do not receive because you ask with the wrong motives so that you may spend it on your own pleasures”( James 4:3) Now, a big fine house with a pool out in the back is great but what about world hunger, missionaries fighting for their lives, safety in our country and throughout the world, peace, togetherness in the communities, better schools? We must start praying and unselfishly for peace, favor, and grace over leaders, communities, family members, and self and watch how that little mustard seed of faith and praise will make a impact… a positive impact..
It’s racing at a pace I can’t even calculate. My creativity is overflowing AND starting to spew out onto blank screens. Producing masterpieces of black splashes laid neatly onto rows with elegant pearl white backdrops. I can’t explain it and nevertheless contain it. This story in my mind and heart must be birthed out……..it has to be birthed and not aborted for this is too great of a work brewing ready to intoxicate the minds of readers here and there. These labor pains are a bit intense just bare with me for a bit…..
Ok, I must admit that writing is truly a passion of mines and there are no buts about it. I love writing out all of my complex thoughts and odd scenarios. It’s as if my imagination, worries, and fears intertwine for a literary pow-wow which is not only therapy sort of but it creates some really good stuff. I just really felt like I needed to write something on here so there it was. Have a blessed evening folks!
Thoughts raced in my mind quicker than a speeding bullet or at least that sounds about right. Fear seems to be contagious in a way. I would hang around certain people and before long I would have fears racing in my head and some of those fears did not belong to me. So, was I supposed to live in a bubble? or just run like hell from people? But choices that I came up with did not go with my personality. I am a lover of people and even animals too. I loved talking to people about life and experiences but if I got around a crew that had a thousand and one buts as to why they are not happy and where they want to be and had something negative say about not only themselves but other people I would slowly feel myself loosing energy as I absorbed their crap. My husband says to me all of the time that I listen and that’s all people want is for someone to listen but I wasn’t just listening I was absorbing and I wasn’t getting paid for it. The thing is this. I have to learn how to step in take my power back and do what makes me feel great and that’s speaking life over myself and others. So toss those negative thoughts out the door and welcome in new people and situations.
Steps to elevate Negativity in your Life
1. Pray( please a prayer in your God box asking God to change your mind set and place positive and progressive people in your life and block out all of those that aren’t right for you)
2. Live your life (Do fun things….laugh a lot and worry less)
3. At the end of the day and before your day begins MEDITATE
4. Exercise more( walks in nature)
5. Eat healthier( going to sleep after eating cake will have you dreaming all kinds of crazy stuff.
6. If somebody is around you and everything is negative just walk away and politely excuse yourself *you might be alone for awhile but honey that is better than being around someone that dumps their crap on you…
I think it’s rather simple yet people make this love thing extremely complex. People are running around not even speaking to parents, siblings, aunts, friends, co-workers, even strangers and uncles too.
I realized that life is far too precious to hold grudges and anger towards others when we can be happy, full of laughter, and sharing love instead of cold shoulders and frowns. I can’t express it enough. Love is the key to living a happy life.
Trust me I am not perfect and problems come up but I try my best to share love, joy and most importantly understanding. We must become more compassionate and loving so drop the attitude and replace it with real love…..
Life is a wild, crazy, and extreme ride. As I go through my ups and then my downs there is one thing constant I am still standing through it all. Now, I can sit and ponder over all of the things that are lacking in my life and all of the to do list I have scattered around my house but at this very moment I have decided to chill….laugh….love….and just flow. Worrying has never caused any problems to cease in fact worrying brings about more stress and a load of anxiety so the solution for me to the pull myself up and show love, be willing to accept love and laugh a lot. So can you join one for one entire week of no negativity, no hate, no frustration but a week filled with prayer, praise, and showing love the way God intended us to be. Think about how Jesus died to save somebody like you and me yet we refuse to forgive people and show the same love and compassion for human kind. It’s time to stop, drop baggage off, love more and laugh with some positive people….
Enjoy your week and may it be filled with peace, joy, praise, and love in the name of Jesus……